{ I MAKE MY OWN DREAMS* }

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Oh yeah...I'm finally back in Singapore.The waiting for coming back was terrible man!
I actually came back on the 20 June and will be leaving on the 11July2008...so i will be here for 3 weeks exactly.I had already been in Singapore for a week plus.The first week was quite fun,exciting and busy.However,as the days come by,i realise that I'm just doing the same thing as what i used to do in Australia:ROTTING AT HOME!!!I just came back at the wrong time,when holidays just ended and everyone has to get back to school.Even Beryl is going back to Australia soon.Haiz...but at least i get to come back,this is already a blessing.Ya,what more can i expect???
I just heard from my friends that Australia now is really cold now.The lowest temperature is around 4-5 degrees while the highest temperature is only 13-14 degrees.As for Singapore,its almost 30 degrees here everyday.So i said,I'm going to explode soon!!!
Anyway i look forward to a good holiday here,for me to relax and pump myself up again for the next semester=)

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PHEW..the last day of school is finally over,what long day...
I realise the last day of school is always the happiest but also the busiest.
I have to run all over the school just now to look for teachers.Not for myself,but for Carmen.
She wasn't feeling well and didn't go to school today.
Therefore she gave me a 'to-do list' and ask me to help her get her results and worksheets.
I had a terrible headache this morning,the room was like spinning when woke up,and it became worse after all the running around.
However,i still feel happy because i know that i am able to help Carmen.
Exams will be starting next week onwards.STRESSED!!!Have to really work hard these few days man,the last chance to pull up my overall result.
It was really cold just now,and had to carry loads of books back.Thank God that i had someone to send me home.Although that person didn't help me to carry my books,at least he still helped me by making my trip back to the hostel shorter.THANK YOU!!! =)
Anyway,i had a pretty good day,but busier than i thought it will be...

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Everything seems to be going on track now..on my way back to my old self and really really starting to love my life now.
Here,there's new expectations everyday..something new everyday,i can proudly wake up everyday and say "THANK GOD FOR MY NEW DAY",before i sleep i can also say "THANK GOD FOR MY DAY TODAY,I REALLY ENJOYED IT!"
Being able to come here,I've grown physically,mentally and of course spiritually,even though it may be tough...BECAUSE OF HIM,I AM STRONG
Today may be a difficult day for me,many unhappiness took place and stuff,ups and downs.However,at the end of the day,i can't blame anyone for anything,because i know that this is a day that God had created.I will treasure it!
Today,i found out that Vicki had broken up with her boyfriend and something had happened in between them.I thought of myself and how silly i used to be,but now,everything had passed.
Can fairy tales ever happen on mortals?
Can all the drama story lines ever happen in real life?
Can all our dreams ever come true?
Can we ever do everything that we used to lecture others?
Am i able to say faithfully,"YES!I CAN!"?

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Sometimes people and things can just come all at a time and all leave at another time.
If you didn't treasure any one of them,you may regret when you lost them...
I used to have so much,however i didn't treasure any of them,and now,everything just disappeared in a blink of an eye.
Yesterday,all unhappiness just poured over me like no one's business.
First,i knew that Linda had changed her course and went back to TELP...
Secondly,i found out something that's really disappointing...
Thirdly,the phone call with my friend was hung up because of low reception,when i had so much to tell him...
Fourthly,i had a very weird feeling with my two groups of friends and felt like some idiot among them...
Fifthly,i was really angry with myself for being so "C"!
I was devastated yesterday,knowing no one to talk to except Him...I miss home
Linda went back to TELP yesterday and officially had her first lesson yesterday.She regretted for doing so.
As i said,if you didn't treasure the chance,no one can help you.
Frankly speaking,i felt lonely,even though i didn't admit in front of her.
No one is sitting beside me during class anymore,no one is having lunch with me anymore,no one is gonna lend me a shoulder to lean onto anymore in class.
I went pass her English class today,looking at the empty seat she used to sit every time,i saw her shadow.I saw her waving at me and giving me a big wide smile.I MISS HER!
So many things happened these days...am i still happy?Will i be happy tomorrow to buy myself a happiness charm and add onto my chain as I've promised myself?
I hate myself for being so unhappy and "C".
I really want to go back to the yupei whom i used to be when i just reached Australia.
Anyway yupei,just remember to think positively and be strong in whatever you faced.
Do your best,be your real own and HE will do the rest=)

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I just realised something...i don't know if I'm just thinking too much or what.I couldn't control but to think of it especially after what had happened yesterday.
It may be easy for people to befriend with each another and communicate.
However it will be difficult for them to live together under one roof and see each other everyday,especially when you'll have totally different personalities and come from different countries.
You really must have the generosity and patience to deal with everything.
It is easy for us to say that we want to move up and live together now,but i believe that it won't be easy when we have misunderstandings and unhappiness in the future.
I'm having a rather mixed feeling in me now.
I'm not sure if i have that BIG HEART to accept their weaknesses and control my temper plus the feeling of outcasting every time they speak in Cantonese.
On the other hand,I'm somehow looking forward to living on our own,cooking all meals ourselves,and sharing a room with a roommate.
Anyway,we'll see how it goes when our requirement for the changing of room is approved.

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I suddenly thought today:i wanna say goodbye.No disappointment,no regrets,i wanna say goodbye!


Btw,i had a very fun day yesterday--SLEEPING
I couldn't believe that i could sleep soooo much,
from 7.30 pm after Biggest Loser yesterday till 8.30 am this morning.
Its like around 13 hours.The good thing is that i didn't have homework yesterday.
With that much of sleep,i was super high just now and kept on talking to mushroom
HAHA...
Suddenly felt that this kind of life will never happen in Singapore with my
parents around.
Anyway,i enjoyed school today and the first day of school yesterday.
Today,i really had a chance to exercise in the morning.
When i went to school with Dale this morning for our line 4 lesson,we were told the
front door and the lift could not be used.No choice,we had to go from the back door and squeeze the stairs with the others.Thank God that my lesson was at the fifth level....
Later,i then realised that there was fire drill just now and the WHOLE BUILDING had been emptied...
After that,when i reached level 5,Linda asked me to go down to the ground floor again to get the green card with her.Okay,so we climbed down.After she got her green card,we climbed back to level 5 again...When we went back to class,i could feel that I'm half dead.
Thanks to the fire drill...

Btw,daylight saving had started on last Sunday.It means that last Sunday,i had 25 hours.The time here had been brought forward by an hour,which means the time here is only one hour faster than Singapore now!=)

I got back my computer science test yesterday and i failed by 3 and a half mark.Got a really good scolding by Ralph and he was like kept on asking me how come i failed my test even though my English seems to be better then him.Although his fierce and scolded me for my poor result,i appreciated that.At least he's with good intention and taught me how do it after that.THANK YOU RALPH=)

{ I MAKE MY OWN DREAMS* }

{ I MAKE MY OWN DREAMS* }